Good News but Not For Me

Hi Everyone...Saturday again.What's your plan for today????Much of a plan huh... And i have no plans in my thought for what to do. Where to go. Whom to go with. Ironic huh. LOL.

Today i'm here to share with you all something that came to my mind last night when i pick and drop my work partner and his guys to the airport. Hell yeah, they're going to have fun for weekend. His guys here mean his girlfriend, both of his fellas and their wife also and plus one of his fella sister in law. I know it's quite confusing with my description for them so i'll make an initial name for them. So that it would be easy to understand. Because each of them had something to tell in this session.Lol. Much to absorb.

First, i'll start from my work partner. Hmm..Let's just call him Mr.Jojo, ok?? So, when we're on the way to pick up one of his friend and wife, there's only left both of us in the car cause his friends went to call his wife. In this case, we haven't pick up his girlfriend because her house is more far from our office. And when in the car Mr.Jojo talked to me, but actually i didn't realize right away when he talk to me because i plug i-touch into my ear with rock song. But when i saw him pull out his hand from his small bags, i saw a box with red cover and then open it with one push and guess what i saw in the box. A propose ring!!! Lol. I shocked a bit. I thought "oh!! Finally you'll do it for your own sake!!" but nothing came out from my mouth just a "Wow". Rofl. In the end Mr.Jojo asked me, "Is it pretty???" and in an instant i answerer him with "Hell, of course it is." So here i want to congrats Mr.Jojo and his wife wannabe. Hope everything turns out to be the best for both of them. Although it's not i'm the one who's gonna be propose but I just can't afford the joy and happiness for both of them. Because i know how hard and struggling for Mr.Jojo to accomplished this day. This is just such a happy ending for my thought but not for both of you Mr.Jojo. So keep up the good work. My best wishes and prayer for both of you.^^ Wondering when my day will come. Think i should keep wondering for this matter. Lol.^^

Ok, i'm done with above story. And i want to say i'm sorry for all my blog reader that you have to read my super long story everytime i write my blog. i'm so sorry, this is because i'm lazy to write and i ended up have to share it all in one scroll. Please tolerance for my laziness.

Second, let's begin with Mr.Jojo friend with initial Mr.Tutu and his wife. Here i notice that Mr.Tutu and his wife is really love each other. His wife is a very caring wife. Always care for his husband. But in this case, Mr.Tutu is a very funny people so it's really hard to tell from his attitude. He always talk with his mouth, not his heart or brain. I know he has nothing bad for that. Just like to make a joke for and from other peoples. I already been made laugh to dead only in my one hours in the car. I laugh with my tears would burst out of my eyes. He talk soooo much. And i love this facts because he talk so freely to us with no age difference. Keep up the good work also Mr.Tutu. You're totally screw with all of that. Rock to hell. ^^

Third is the friend of Mr.Jojo and Mr.Tutu. Better called him Mr.Vovo and his wife. The facts i heard about he, his wife and his sister in law shocked me a bit. Three of them mixed into one so freely. I think there would no wife that want their husband gone out with other girls even that's her own blood related sister. Nowadays that kind of wife already so hard to find. But this Mr.Vovo's wife is the kind of what i said above. Think of it, the fact are they can went everywhere together, for lunch, breakfast, dinner, coffee time even brunch time in the holiday. His sister in law had a boyfriend as far as i knew and soon to get marry to his boyfriend. So this is just awkward for me. Mr.Vovo and his sister in law still can go out so freely minus his wife because of duty call or another things. Mr. Vovo and his sister in law go to swimming together, have lunch together. Without afraid of his wife absence will make the situation became dull between them. In the save side i would think the three of them is very fair to each other. But if you think it differently, it would cross to what's the issue with the three of  them. So it's your decision with what side you want to put it. If me personally, i think i envy them. His wife and her sister never become awkward with his husband between them. One fact that the most exaggerating for me is they can sleep in the same hotel room together.Lol. Mr.Tutu make a joke over this matter says that what if Mr.Vovo make a wrong move to his sister in law when he fell asleep.Lol. Just a joke only. Lol.

So this is my story. Let's get going. I have to finish my work asap and go home. Bye. everybody. Xoxo. Jz.

I'm indeed sorry

Aaaaaaa.......i can't relief now,still have exam and assignment to do this day..huk huk,...So many....Exam still haven't learn anything...hhhhh.......


Thanks God, yesterday i can done better for the test..It's not full done but at least i got enough..Then it's up to the lecturer for the rest. I just can pray for the best and wait. Now it's time for today battle. Hope i can do it well too. Have high hope in this. LoL. After taking final test i have to continue on my assignment again today. May God lead & guide my way today. Thanks in Advance for everything.

Today i get a good news and a bad one too. The good one actually can't call it good, just something that i had given up but suddenly appear in my sight when i already didn't really expect it would. So i think i must be happy and thanks for this. Previously i would expect more than this, but it's OK, at least we made a progress. And here comes the bad news, today morning i had made someone fell down from his bike, make me startled when i heard a sound from behind me. Can't say it's totally my fault cause i myself dunno why he fell down. maybe he's referring to me that made him fell down just now. I won't say i'm not at fault at all. I do feel sorry for him and i want to say i really didn't mean it to be like this. My deeply apologize for this.

I just spend my lunch time in this blog, think i should get going and start my lunch and then continue my work and start learning for my test today. So see you soon, then. Xoxo. Jz.

Worrying about My Exam

Good Morning everybody..Feeling fresh today????I am actually,because last night my lil bro led me to sleep with fulfilling my request to play the song which currently i like to hear until i fall asleep till morning..So today i want to thanks my lil bro, Mr. T for filling my request which this is totally rare for my bro to accompany me with my request.LOL. He always said that i'm crazy with always had an extraordinary request that he can't fulfill but i always keep requesting.hahaha....

Thinking of last night, i also have an exam which i think i won't pass the exam because i can't done it well enough. Hope the lecturer will spare us enough.lol. Hope ssoooo..... sometimes i get bored from study but i know no matter what i have to graduate from this University. My Mom have high hopes for me, my family indeed although someone keep babbling that my university is just a piece of crap. Lol. Just like hell they knew how hard we've been struggling to be good in their eyes. People brain are so simple actually. Rolf.

And one last thing that i hope today is that i can make it good for my exam so that i don't have to re-take again. because i hate re-take so much. No good for me huh??? lazy but still don't want to retake. How can people like me exist, i still dunno too.. Lol.. This is me then, everybody!!! xoxo. Jz.

In The End Nothing Last Forever

Hi Hi Everybody in Blogger.. Finally have the spirit to post again since my mind already overflow with many things to consider and re-think what's wrong with my life..such a big curiosity question and dense question isn't it???*long sigh* actually i already dunno how many sigh i'm having till today.lol.. Early this morning, when i'm driving, my mind gone everywhere and didn't notice the road, a little longer of mind travelling, i would have already crash the car in front of me but fortunately God still love me, i still have time to hit the brake right away and had a sudden stop that hard enough to shake my head.lol. make me realize and gathered all my mind in one again and promise myself i will not give it a damn anymore. If i don't protect myself then who would???

Many incident that didn't suit my mind and heart this couple days, but finally i can walk through it in the save side. It started from 2 days ago, i remember it was Saturday and in our country we have a holiday that day so i'm quite excited thinking i can have many leisure time. lol. lazy, am i??? So i woke up that morning and then bring my grandma and granda to have breakfast, we had kari bihun that my grandpa like.hihihihi....and then we back home and in the afternoon i have crash schedule with my family, which i have to bring them to where they want and in the other side, i already make a promise with others to go out with them. But my family insist on me to drove and drop them first and then i can go have fun. But in condition i had to go back at night to drove them home again.(Ane ma huan kan??but what can i do lah??) Poor me i didn't have many choice in my hands, so i had to delay my promise and drive them which this is still OK, although i'm a lil bit not happy, thinking why i always can't have my day off and why i have to serve people whatever they want, why i have no place to say/scream out that i want to have my full day off without any intruder, but in the end i always ended stuck with all of that. i just had to give up with all of my will and fulfill others.

So i just get ready to drive them, in the half way, in front of the traffic light my window got knocked by an old man, then i scroll down my window and asked him "what's the matter?" and you know what did he answer me???lol. He answered me "hey you shit brat, look at my car, you scum!!!". Oh my my i think i made someone mad at me and he's face is red from anger, i'm really afraid actually but i definitely can't lost this fight, i'll be damned if i lose this conversation so i just asked him back, "why should i look???" and this phrase make him more angry and he babbled out "you brat, you drove like hell and spit my whole car with mud then you say why should i look!!!! you see how dirty my car is now!!!??" with high high tone in my face. Then i sound on my nerve like "That's your problem, not mine! why should i give it a damned!!!????". Say what, he gets more angry and then he moved his hand in a will to toss his hands to my face, but he didn't do it, he just end up his toss in the air because when it happens, my brain scream out, i have to defend myself so i scream quickly and loudly "hey you!you want to play rough hah??did i crash to your car or what!!!???i drove like hell that is my problem and your car is dirty that's your problem not mine!!!!". I feel very angry that time and just scream as louder as i want, and i notice people in other side of our car already kept watching our incident. In the end he said "you shit fucking asshole, don't try to fool me, i'll kill you later!!!" and i don't want to hear the rest so i just scroll up my window, guess what right before my window close, he spitted out his dirty saliva to me!!! damn it huh!!!but fortunately it didn't hit my face, it landed on my window. And i really thanks God with this one, i myself dunno what will happen to him if his saliva landed on me, maybe i'll surely hit him and drag with my car.lol. cruel me huh. but i'm already in the mood of hitting people that day.

Above is the rough conversation between me and the angry old man. And here's the reason why i drove that quick is because i'm rushing with time, i remember i already promised to go out but in the end i got delay until couple hours. And not the lucky side is i bump into a traffic jam that waist my time again so once i have a chance to be quick why don't i rush faster???It all happens very fast and i knew that i made a wrong choice this time. This time is just i spitted mud to the other cars, what if i had something big than that??? this is where i beg for forgiveness with the way i act out that day. Say what in the end i still get nothing but missunderstanding from people, they think i'm a joki, crazy and didn't care with my life, they think i didn't care with the promises i had made. Guess now you have the answer that i never want to say even when you asked me. I never want to hang out and promise all of my friends to hang out is because i knew from the beginning that i can't fulfill all of them. I'd rather stayed at home and enjoy my life, because i knew i still have a duty call that can occur anytime that i had to fulfill no matter what. This is me, i'm not perfect, i'm just trying to be better and try to be perfect even if i knew that is just impossible. It's just silly me that thought people will surely understand my condition, i've failed once that made me closed my heart, and the second is still failed to death. *sigh* Xoxo All. Jz.

Busy Day & Busy Mind

Hi Again Everyone..Feeling great this day???Suddenly i have many thing to write but nothing come out after i start typing..lol..easy to forget leh..my bad really..

Hmm... As i said, busy day and busy mind.. I feel i'm already in the nerve even when i haven't start sharing..lol.. but all of it already passed so i just feel so so now..hahaha.... First, i felt trully sorry to Ms. JWF for my rudeness from canceling our plans for going to watch movie together.Deeply apologize for this matter. I know both of us are very eager to watch the movie but i had to canceled our schedule because my urgent & sudden matter.. Reason why i had to canceled our plan was i had an urgent class from university to attend that day. But in the end the lecturer canceled that class. Really pissed me off actually but what can we do???lol..

Come second, yesterday i made a new plan again to watch movie together with Ms. JWF, i myself was quite excited for my new plan because i thought this time would be OK since i didn't have anything to do on Saturday. As i always wrote on my previous blog. I started my day at the office and start thinking for my day plan and i organize all of my plan. But say what???All of them had to be canceled due to other people urgency!! Copy this, other people urgency!not mine. But i'm the one that had to be part of their day plan. And that plan is no other than became their driver. Eeerrr.... I had to run from east to south, north to west and ruin all my day.. So sad and angry actually but what can i do???can i say it's my duty??hmm...not the right word to describe my feeling but still OK lah.lol..

But that night i felt comforted by my brother Mr. T, we had chat and we talked about our day and he support me for tomorrow exam. We talked about many thing which this kind of thing is rarely happens because usually we talked only if there's something important.lol. I remember he said to me this phrase that represent my busy day, he said "hari ini lu e hidup ane khoo (read : pahit) ar". And then we talked about our future in joking mode. so i laugh a lot that night. Thanks to my lil bro, at least you made me laugh at the end of my busy day & busy mind.

Wah wah seems like i already complained about many things from upside down..rofl.. Maybe i have to stop already.. Sorry everybody for my rudeness above.. Guess i have to go to sleep, tomorrow still have long way to go i believe. Hope God will guide my day.. Same for all of you..Have a nice sleep too.. XoXo.. Jz.