Many Hi All!!!! Oh, i love today eventhou i'm still having this headache because lack of sleep and getting pouring rain from the day before.. But all of that didn't mind at all since i'm in the mood of writing my blog. Actually i got inspired after reading my cousin Ms.Tif's blog, then i realized that i haven't update any since weeks. hahaha....... Spare me please for abandoning my blog again (as always). hihihi..
Like i said, this is nearly end of November, soon gonna enter the last month of year 2010 - December - means we'll calculate our total act, total earn, total lost too. lol. And soon enough will receive the new year celebration and don't forget for Christmas of course. Since i'll be staying at hometown for all of this celebration, minus my cousin and my BFF too, cause they'll be going abroad to celebrate it there. I'll celebrate Christmas with my Mom and fam, Mom said she'll come at Christmas, i'm very glad to hear that, cause i keep thinking what should i do with no cousin, no BFF at my side to pass this year Christmas and New year. Kinda sad to think like that, but no matter what i need to stand on my own.
Btw, last night, i went to watched Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, together with my aunty and cousins, boys and girls. The movie was rated OK from me, since i thought many people said that the movie is really boring to watch. Oh please!! they judge something too simple. Means they're really simple-minded person. Lol. No offense, sometimes, being simple minded is quite good. And i do love simple minded person. hoho. So no offense at all. But i'll not agree for this case. As for my opinion, the film was quite good to watch if you keep focusing from the beginning, if you keep that up then you absolutely will not fall asleep for the rest. Like the person who sat in front of us. Sleeping like in the bed of heaven. ROFL. I recommended this film for those whose already keep posted from the beginning chapter. And surely will be waiting along for the next yet last chapter from the Books.^^
As for today, Oh my my i forget i already have many plans for today, early morning, of course works, stands first. After work i've been planning to go to saloon with Ms.Tif-Tif to cut our hair together. I am still hesitating to cut or no cut for my overall hair. Aaahh, i don't want to think it here and now, make me stress out for that small matter. Lol. I'll decide it once i arrive there. hihihihi.... And for the night, we (Me, Tif & Kat + hus) we'll be going to dinner at JW.Marriot Medan. After that i also plan on staying overnight at Ms.Tif's home.We want to chat and sharing all the night out. Again this is only our plan. maybe we'll just fall asleep in the middle of it. Hope all of this plan walks good for today. The only thing bother me is - Ssstttt!!! don't tell anyone that i told you this!!! - i'm having my first day period for this month and this bother me so much, my stomach felt like being pinch every minute. huhhuhu... Hope this will not continue the whole day and ruin my fun time. I'll pinch you back. Lol.
And here comes the tomorrow, i'll be having my HSK exam. Oh My Mama.. I haven't keep an eye on this subject for over a week and i'm sure i'll have no time to study again since i already have so many plans in hands for today and maybe even tomorrow. Maybe i'll spare some times to have a quick glance at the paper again later at tutor time. Haha. Hope soo. This is all i can share for today. Hope it will be useful for you guys.
See you again. XoXo. Jz.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Long Gone and...... I'm Back!!!!
Oh... Miss Blogger so much.. much.. and much..... I have been passing my blog for over - let me think first - one month or more!!!! Miss posting something for y'all..
After my long gone absence, actually i had so much to tell but you know my memory is still a short therm memory which will only lasts if it's a really important to be kept in one of the chamber in my brain.Hihihi....
Maybe i'll just heat you guys up with some short memory of my current life.. For example, sometimes i feel life is not fair to people. Even for myself. I always look at people who has to struggled their life out for living this day.
Currently, my lovely country - maybe as you guys ever heard from global news - is suffering from many disaster, as far as i knew was earthquake, tsunami and one of the mountain in our country is in state of flowing it's larva to many places near the mountain and of course this already caused so many people lives at a stake. Until today it's been recorded over hundreds of death in this disaster. I'm also feel so sad for all of the family that lost their family, house, a place to call home and maybe their afterlife job and earning ability. Everytime we turn on the television there'll be news for our country disaster in every channel of our local television. And i do knew that we also got so many supporter from the whole world for our country. Support with words, blessing, prayer, donation, even volunteer from other countries, till today is still helping those poor people to start to pick up their life and help them to start a new life. I am very thankful for all of their support.
I, privately only can help with prayin due to many of the choices above that i mention for helping was not suited for me. Hope God will show us some mercy even when we didn't deserve it. Hope my country can pass all of this as soon as possible. It's is really painful to see our own country suffering from disaster. Maybe my general memory will end until here.
And for my personal matter, maybe there's not so much to tell. This past month maybe i've been crazy for works, univ and assignment from lecture everyday. I barely lose my mind and snap for not continuing my Uni again.. I'm so stress in and out. Plus i have to worried for my family matter in hand. Like my life was not full enough and still filling it with so many things. I ain't gonna complain further, so i settle all of that down one by one and hopefully i won't made a wrong choice for all of the choices that i've made.
So maybe i'll end my posts till here today.. I can't promise you guys that i'll keep writing my blog. But maybe i'll keep you guys posted will do. See you guys in my next post.. XoXo. Jz.
After my long gone absence, actually i had so much to tell but you know my memory is still a short therm memory which will only lasts if it's a really important to be kept in one of the chamber in my brain.Hihihi....
Maybe i'll just heat you guys up with some short memory of my current life.. For example, sometimes i feel life is not fair to people. Even for myself. I always look at people who has to struggled their life out for living this day.
Currently, my lovely country - maybe as you guys ever heard from global news - is suffering from many disaster, as far as i knew was earthquake, tsunami and one of the mountain in our country is in state of flowing it's larva to many places near the mountain and of course this already caused so many people lives at a stake. Until today it's been recorded over hundreds of death in this disaster. I'm also feel so sad for all of the family that lost their family, house, a place to call home and maybe their afterlife job and earning ability. Everytime we turn on the television there'll be news for our country disaster in every channel of our local television. And i do knew that we also got so many supporter from the whole world for our country. Support with words, blessing, prayer, donation, even volunteer from other countries, till today is still helping those poor people to start to pick up their life and help them to start a new life. I am very thankful for all of their support.
I, privately only can help with prayin due to many of the choices above that i mention for helping was not suited for me. Hope God will show us some mercy even when we didn't deserve it. Hope my country can pass all of this as soon as possible. It's is really painful to see our own country suffering from disaster. Maybe my general memory will end until here.
And for my personal matter, maybe there's not so much to tell. This past month maybe i've been crazy for works, univ and assignment from lecture everyday. I barely lose my mind and snap for not continuing my Uni again.. I'm so stress in and out. Plus i have to worried for my family matter in hand. Like my life was not full enough and still filling it with so many things. I ain't gonna complain further, so i settle all of that down one by one and hopefully i won't made a wrong choice for all of the choices that i've made.
So maybe i'll end my posts till here today.. I can't promise you guys that i'll keep writing my blog. But maybe i'll keep you guys posted will do. See you guys in my next post.. XoXo. Jz.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Fun, Funny, Quite Distrubing People (Part III)
Hi Again Everybody... I'm coming again in an instant because i still want to write or need to write exactly.hihihihi.. This is the third part of my previous blog. I dunno whether i can finish it in one day cause here is kinda busy with upcoming holiday, so i have to rush my work so that there's no problem for me to have my full holiday and hopefully i can have fun this time.
The third part maybe will contain my personal thought and a bit story from my past. Do you guys still remember the little girl from my part II story??? of course you'll remember that, you just have to re-open the previous blog if you don't. lol...
So you know, this girl grow up and became the person i don't really recognize again this day. I just have this awkward feeling for her. I keep wandering why she's becoming like that. I barely didn't recognize her anymore i think. It's just i also don't hope she'll change this much and slip from our hands. I just don't like her manner now and then maybe. Because i take that her manner will never change again once she's in it.
She changed to became an adult who keep blaming on her Mom because of her Mom gave her a very strict education and curfew time when she's still in teenager. Now she can said that she have no friends now because of that. For me, it's a total LOL. Did she ever think that her Mom did that because her mom afraid she'll get drowned into that manner and came to disappoint her. Her Mom always told me that she's just totally alike her father's side grandmother.
Now she got a boyfriend that in my auntie's eye is already good and fit for her. I also feel very happy if she get the perfect and happy life. In many ways, i still love her and wish her a real happiness. But she just turn out from my sight and against me so i just keep my mouth shut because i know it would be useless for saying another words. I just wish she'll never forget her mom in the future, because now i grow to realize why her Mom always said to me that she's alike with her grandma. However she had this attitude that only matter herself instead of her mother too. It's like she'll survive without other people, this manner she have is the same with my younger brother. They always think of themselves like there's no responsibility for others. Maybe they were built up like that. I dunno the reason why they became like that too.
It is totally acceptable for me when it comes to my younger brother. Because if he, i still can bear it because he still have us older sister and youngest brother to complete his responsibility when he abandoned it. But for her, you knew already that she's only her and her mother. She's the one and only one in her mother's heart. She's her mother only hope. But i think she never realize that. She can't understand and can't bear with her mother even for awhile. Like now after she got a boyfriend, she always go out shopping, eat, have fun with his boyfriend but he never think of getting anything for her mom. Even when her mom is sick at home, she never care and try to go home early and accompany her mom that can't eat anything. *sigh*
And for my matter is, she make me feel like i'm her ordinary friends that she knew only for a year. hahhaa.... totally suitable for my image, huh... Last time story was when we gone out with our mandarin teacher and couple friends, we went to have dinner at a small restaurant and her boyfriend who pays the bill that coming from the waiters, but after walked out from the restaurant she said to me "let's go to uncle house and start count our bill." My first thought is like "See, see, here they come again." and my second thought is "Oh, can't you count it tomorrow or then." It's totally ruin my mood for the rest. It's totally disturbing for me. They want to treat our mandarin teacher but she count the bill in front of our teacher and started collecting the money in the car. Uuugggghhhhh...... Really pissed me off!!!!you guys know. I quickly said with sharp tone "can't you guys please don't count it in our teacher's face". Luckily our mandarin teacher dunno what we're talking about. In my thought, they like want to be saw very loyal in others people eye but totally stingy in the inside. If both of you want to treat people than do it wholeheartedly please. (jangan cuma cari muka!!!!) It's not like a very big sum of money. If it's big i think i still can tolerate that kind of manner. But this is already overreacting.
Both of them can eat like 6 times or more a day if they are together. But they can't treat other people a dinner with some small sum. Is this something that can compare to that thing??? Not to say that i'm very loyal person but at least for something like this i'll never behave like that. If it's a big sum of course i'll pay them back too!!!
One thing that i have in my personal thought is that when i said to my other auntie's that her boyfriend is very stingy, she said that's okay lar cause he knew how hard to earn money. My thought is like, ups.. i complain to the wrong person. Because they are the same type. I shut my mouth in the very second. Did they think that they are the one who knew how hard to earn money???? Hello, do you think how i earn money too??? Is it like flipping a book?? Big No!!! I have to use my brain and ability too, hey. And this story goes the same for my younger brother. He just feel that this problem is just ordinary. But my grandma, grandpa, and youngest brother was agreed with me. My youngest brother asked me before he fell asleep one night, " did Ms.Pn always like that before???" I simply just can't answer him in an instant.
My opinion, for me this is not ordinary, they are over stingy and not in place. If i want to be honest, if we have no responsibility than this matter is totally no matter thing. But this is fully my personal thought. Remember this, you guys can take this story as something to think about. So it is totally up to you people what side do you agree and don't. Above is all of my complaining story. I guess i have to end this story soon. My boss is back. Hihihi...... Xoxo. Jz.
The third part maybe will contain my personal thought and a bit story from my past. Do you guys still remember the little girl from my part II story??? of course you'll remember that, you just have to re-open the previous blog if you don't. lol...
So you know, this girl grow up and became the person i don't really recognize again this day. I just have this awkward feeling for her. I keep wandering why she's becoming like that. I barely didn't recognize her anymore i think. It's just i also don't hope she'll change this much and slip from our hands. I just don't like her manner now and then maybe. Because i take that her manner will never change again once she's in it.
She changed to became an adult who keep blaming on her Mom because of her Mom gave her a very strict education and curfew time when she's still in teenager. Now she can said that she have no friends now because of that. For me, it's a total LOL. Did she ever think that her Mom did that because her mom afraid she'll get drowned into that manner and came to disappoint her. Her Mom always told me that she's just totally alike her father's side grandmother.
Now she got a boyfriend that in my auntie's eye is already good and fit for her. I also feel very happy if she get the perfect and happy life. In many ways, i still love her and wish her a real happiness. But she just turn out from my sight and against me so i just keep my mouth shut because i know it would be useless for saying another words. I just wish she'll never forget her mom in the future, because now i grow to realize why her Mom always said to me that she's alike with her grandma. However she had this attitude that only matter herself instead of her mother too. It's like she'll survive without other people, this manner she have is the same with my younger brother. They always think of themselves like there's no responsibility for others. Maybe they were built up like that. I dunno the reason why they became like that too.
It is totally acceptable for me when it comes to my younger brother. Because if he, i still can bear it because he still have us older sister and youngest brother to complete his responsibility when he abandoned it. But for her, you knew already that she's only her and her mother. She's the one and only one in her mother's heart. She's her mother only hope. But i think she never realize that. She can't understand and can't bear with her mother even for awhile. Like now after she got a boyfriend, she always go out shopping, eat, have fun with his boyfriend but he never think of getting anything for her mom. Even when her mom is sick at home, she never care and try to go home early and accompany her mom that can't eat anything. *sigh*
And for my matter is, she make me feel like i'm her ordinary friends that she knew only for a year. hahhaa.... totally suitable for my image, huh... Last time story was when we gone out with our mandarin teacher and couple friends, we went to have dinner at a small restaurant and her boyfriend who pays the bill that coming from the waiters, but after walked out from the restaurant she said to me "let's go to uncle house and start count our bill." My first thought is like "See, see, here they come again." and my second thought is "Oh, can't you count it tomorrow or then." It's totally ruin my mood for the rest. It's totally disturbing for me. They want to treat our mandarin teacher but she count the bill in front of our teacher and started collecting the money in the car. Uuugggghhhhh...... Really pissed me off!!!!you guys know. I quickly said with sharp tone "can't you guys please don't count it in our teacher's face". Luckily our mandarin teacher dunno what we're talking about. In my thought, they like want to be saw very loyal in others people eye but totally stingy in the inside. If both of you want to treat people than do it wholeheartedly please. (jangan cuma cari muka!!!!) It's not like a very big sum of money. If it's big i think i still can tolerate that kind of manner. But this is already overreacting.
Both of them can eat like 6 times or more a day if they are together. But they can't treat other people a dinner with some small sum. Is this something that can compare to that thing??? Not to say that i'm very loyal person but at least for something like this i'll never behave like that. If it's a big sum of course i'll pay them back too!!!
One thing that i have in my personal thought is that when i said to my other auntie's that her boyfriend is very stingy, she said that's okay lar cause he knew how hard to earn money. My thought is like, ups.. i complain to the wrong person. Because they are the same type. I shut my mouth in the very second. Did they think that they are the one who knew how hard to earn money???? Hello, do you think how i earn money too??? Is it like flipping a book?? Big No!!! I have to use my brain and ability too, hey. And this story goes the same for my younger brother. He just feel that this problem is just ordinary. But my grandma, grandpa, and youngest brother was agreed with me. My youngest brother asked me before he fell asleep one night, " did Ms.Pn always like that before???" I simply just can't answer him in an instant.
My opinion, for me this is not ordinary, they are over stingy and not in place. If i want to be honest, if we have no responsibility than this matter is totally no matter thing. But this is fully my personal thought. Remember this, you guys can take this story as something to think about. So it is totally up to you people what side do you agree and don't. Above is all of my complaining story. I guess i have to end this story soon. My boss is back. Hihihi...... Xoxo. Jz.
Fun, Funny, Quite Distrubing People (Part II)
Hi Again.. See you again in this part II, don't get me wrong but i just have things to share and a command from my lovely cousin to keep writing my blog. hihihihi.... and not because of she pushed me to, i myself also want to write what i had in mind so i'll remember it no matter when and where.hihihi.....
In this part II maybe i'll share some thought of mine to all of you. I'll tell a story too.hihihi...I'll start with i knew my cousin with initial Ms. Pn from my past when i was sent to school in Medan. And i also knew my other girl cousin name Ms.T. I lived with this Ms. Pn and her Mom. They are like my family, substituting both of my parents which is far miles away from me that time. If this little girl had a ribbon then i'll have one too. If she had candy then i did too. So i knew her mom definitely took good care of me. When i was a little girl, i had a thought like, wish my mom & dad will gave me small thing like that. Not because of they can't afford that but i knew they can't fulfill that because of many other important reason which at that time i still can't understand.
From time to time my relationship with Ms. Pn grew stronger and stronger because i knew we had bath together, eat the same breakfast, lunch, dinner together, bed together, got in a fight together that made us ended up sleeping in the front door of our bedroom but we start to make a joke of it that time (If i start to think of it. I'll scream silly me. hahaha.). Her mom is a really strict person in teaching manner to both of us. Her Mom is a single parent which bringing up two little girls. I know that is not a simple thing that every women can done it well in this world. So one day i can help them what i can in the future. This is my willing but i dunno whether i can done it well or not. You'll never know what you'll end up to be, is that right????
So I lived with them until i'm in the middle age of 15 maybe. Then they moved out to our auntie's house but they can't afford me, so i just had to moved in with my uncle and his wife.When i moved out i already not in the care of her mom so i dunno exactly how's her day at there and how's she growing up to be. I just know that her Mom strictness and lesson is very useful for me. And i missed that time when we're still that little girl and dunno every single thing that will stuck in our hearts & brains for ages.
So above is my little story so that all of you know more about my pass and i can make it a free memory. We'll continue it to the Part III everybody. So be patient for it. Because if i write it in this part, i think it will too long. Xoxo. Jz.
In this part II maybe i'll share some thought of mine to all of you. I'll tell a story too.hihihi...I'll start with i knew my cousin with initial Ms. Pn from my past when i was sent to school in Medan. And i also knew my other girl cousin name Ms.T. I lived with this Ms. Pn and her Mom. They are like my family, substituting both of my parents which is far miles away from me that time. If this little girl had a ribbon then i'll have one too. If she had candy then i did too. So i knew her mom definitely took good care of me. When i was a little girl, i had a thought like, wish my mom & dad will gave me small thing like that. Not because of they can't afford that but i knew they can't fulfill that because of many other important reason which at that time i still can't understand.
From time to time my relationship with Ms. Pn grew stronger and stronger because i knew we had bath together, eat the same breakfast, lunch, dinner together, bed together, got in a fight together that made us ended up sleeping in the front door of our bedroom but we start to make a joke of it that time (If i start to think of it. I'll scream silly me. hahaha.). Her mom is a really strict person in teaching manner to both of us. Her Mom is a single parent which bringing up two little girls. I know that is not a simple thing that every women can done it well in this world. So one day i can help them what i can in the future. This is my willing but i dunno whether i can done it well or not. You'll never know what you'll end up to be, is that right????
So I lived with them until i'm in the middle age of 15 maybe. Then they moved out to our auntie's house but they can't afford me, so i just had to moved in with my uncle and his wife.When i moved out i already not in the care of her mom so i dunno exactly how's her day at there and how's she growing up to be. I just know that her Mom strictness and lesson is very useful for me. And i missed that time when we're still that little girl and dunno every single thing that will stuck in our hearts & brains for ages.
So above is my little story so that all of you know more about my pass and i can make it a free memory. We'll continue it to the Part III everybody. So be patient for it. Because if i write it in this part, i think it will too long. Xoxo. Jz.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Fun, Funny, Quite Distrubing People
HI All, seems it's been ages since my last blog sharing... Quite lazy, am i??? Big Yess.. hahhaa.... So here i have a command to share this time..hihihi.. So i'll share what i have in mind today..
Today is Monday and i'm of course currently in working time at office but i feel very very lazy and sleepy from head to toe... Wanna know the reason why???? Here it go & flow below..wkwkwk.....Love y'all...
This past Sunday, i've spent it with my mandarin teachers (we have 2 here that close to us) and friends (not to mention mostly is my loveky cousins, brothers and two other friends), because of our Mandarin teachers will soon go back to their country called China, province state in Beijing after two years struggling to gain money by teaching us (really stubborn headed person and lazy-of course-at studying mandarin.Hihihi). We, both of their students want to bring them to have fun with all of us.
So we ended up bringing them to Medan biggest shopping center called Sun Plaza. Actually we kinda have no idea why we gone there cause we had nothing to buy there and nothing to see there, only crowded people everywhere. In the end we decided to eat Red Mango Yogurt and then we rushed to Cemara Asri complex to show them how we, medan people spent tea time at a place called Bundaran. There was so many people gone there to have some snack before dinner. There was so many snack you can buy like sosis, pecel, teng-teng, rujak, martabak, bla bla bla means many more.hahaha...(try to go there if you want and have a taste of it.)
We ended up having snack till our stomach so full, so we walked from Bundaran to the Cemara biggest Buddhist monastery of nunnery (vihara) and take a look there and chattering all along till we are ready for dinner time. We decided to had dinner at Taberu restaurant that famous with their soft crab, we ate and talk till we full and they drove me and my brother to my uncle house which already full of our Big Family there and we start chattering again at there till 10.00 and we gone home one by one.
I'll upload few picture that shows our activity :
This is what my lovely cousin, Mr. Frederick do in the middle of the class. He'll ended up sitting in our teacher chair and start filling his curiosity for everything there..hihihi.. This always drove our teacher got angry with him so she gave him a nickname in Mandarin like "Hen Da De Xiao Mao" which this phrase maybe means like " A little cute bear that try to look really big". I dunno how to describe it better for you. But if you understand mandarin maybe you'll know what it means. hehe.
And this picture is my younger brother, Mr. Tomy. You see what he had in his hands???? That's Blackberry which never apart from him everywhere he is. And include in the middle of the class, he'll never tired to keep torturing our teacher by showing up his phone and tweet on it. So our teacher gave him a nickname too sounds like this in mandarin "Niu Niu Nie Nie " that means "malu malu kucing / salting" in Indonesia. And also "Kou Shi Xin Fei" means "Lain di mulut, lain di hati" in Indonesia.
This picture shows my lovely cousin and her boyfriend, her boyfriend just sign in in our class this month and see they never sat apart from each other. So nice to be in love.. hahaha.... They have nickname too!!! "Chen Phei Nie he Ta de 'Peng You'." means "Katherine and her Friend" Maybe if i write it you'll think this is just an ordinary with words but we always said wit ith an accent and hands language, we'll said the "peng you" part with both of our peace sign fingers beside our head that means this friend is special" after that all the class will laugh out loud. So fun and funny isn't it????
The picture above shows me and my younger brother, I'm trying to update my farm in my itouch and my younger brother is busy with his blackberry under his bag. Guess what, i don't even knew this picture was taken by my teacher and when she sent to me this pic, she said "this will show you that you can't keep your attention for your lesson." hahaha... So sorry laoshi. ^^
This is all i can share so far. I'll make the part II of this blog, so keep waiting everybody. hihihi... Xoxo. Jz.
Friday, August 13, 2010
One Day and then Another
Oh oh.. Seems like it's been ages i haven't update my blog.. It caused by my busy day at work and busy night from packing my things up.. Talking of packing, i gotta go tomorrow, to visit my nicely cousin Ms.Tif-Tif..Hihihi... So busy of everything, nearly forget this trip actually until my friend asked me "are you already preparing your things for this trip???" and the next second in my mind is "oh man this is suck, i haven't!!" And after that i've been considering all night was what i have to bring and wear. Lol. That's just girls natural for worrying that kind of things i think. Today is my due date for preparing all of my things but i just finished it halfway, so after work maybe i'll like a freak and grab everything that still in need. oh my my...
Oya... last night i hang out with my old buddy names Fie, Jack & Guz (if we spell their name in english , it would be really weird). Actually not too old buddy, cause Fie & Jack i always met them at uni, only Guz is the old one. Cause she quit uni and planned for her wedding. Yap, she's getting married this October. Congrats her, yeah of course!! So we hang out, window shopping around and of course our main tittle is gossip.Lol. We talk, we walk, we eat, it didn't felt long, but time make us have to split up and gone home. Wondering when we can be like last night again, thinking that Guz is going to move to Semarang, that is where she will have life journey with her husband. That's it.
For today, i have to manage my work so that there would be any abandon work that can cause me headache when i'm back. Prevention is better than cure, isn't it??? Hope everything will flow smoothly.
Oh and again, one thing that i have in my mind today is i want to go to Sepang Circuit in Malaysia to watch Moto GP(one day, not in instant today).Lol. But i'll skip counting this year in planning cause the day is just fit to Guz night wed party. So wish me luck one day i can be there or other circuit. Lol. Not focus on the circuit, targeting for the rider and winner.hihihihihihi..... One day....... Xoxo. Jz.
Oya... last night i hang out with my old buddy names Fie, Jack & Guz (if we spell their name in english , it would be really weird). Actually not too old buddy, cause Fie & Jack i always met them at uni, only Guz is the old one. Cause she quit uni and planned for her wedding. Yap, she's getting married this October. Congrats her, yeah of course!! So we hang out, window shopping around and of course our main tittle is gossip.Lol. We talk, we walk, we eat, it didn't felt long, but time make us have to split up and gone home. Wondering when we can be like last night again, thinking that Guz is going to move to Semarang, that is where she will have life journey with her husband. That's it.
For today, i have to manage my work so that there would be any abandon work that can cause me headache when i'm back. Prevention is better than cure, isn't it??? Hope everything will flow smoothly.
Oh and again, one thing that i have in my mind today is i want to go to Sepang Circuit in Malaysia to watch Moto GP(one day, not in instant today).Lol. But i'll skip counting this year in planning cause the day is just fit to Guz night wed party. So wish me luck one day i can be there or other circuit. Lol. Not focus on the circuit, targeting for the rider and winner.hihihihihihi..... One day....... Xoxo. Jz.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
August....Yaaaaaayyyyy!!!!!!!!
Ah, finally i have time to write my blog again..Huf huf huf..........Tired after running around like an iron in my office.Not really matter i think. The important one is i can get to write my blog now....niccceeeee............... I can express my feeling again..And it's such a relief..... How about everyone in this early august????? Is it good, better or best???? would like to share my heart since it's already overflow. Lol... With much not really important thing. So bear with me for a while.. hihihi.....
I'm in currently learn adjusting with my new assignment at work. I'm not moving into others company, just increasing my work. Usually i'm the document team and now i have to learn how to be a financial worker team.. Lol..
So try to adjust all of my work in one and only time that always passes so quick..All of your support is highly appreciate.hihihi...Wonder who wants to support me..
And for entertaining myself of nearly get crazy because of my work (of course i don't wanna become crazy at this age, still haven't find my Mr.Right!!! @_@) i gone to shopping center in my town and window shopping around. Maybe i can't call it window shopping since i bought all the things that i saw and interested in. Rofl.
Here i attached for you the things that i bought at the shopping center, not really important if i don't buy it but it's just us woman/girls/grown-up girls things... It calls accessories!!!
I'll explain what is all the above. hihihi..
There's a necklace with white pearl and butterfly, i bought it with IDR 45,000.. I bought this two days ago..
And the love and small white pearl earring, it cost me IDR 25,000.
The turtle did also cost me IDR 25,000... for two latest item i bought them just last night.
That's it, it's all woman things aren't they??? Oh i forgot i also bought some woman secret thing (inner wears) and it costs me IDR 183,000.. I can't attached for you this one cause that would be totally a freak babe..And on top of that the whole blogger will know my posts in less than one hour maybe.hihihi......
Actually i gone to shopping center to kill time because i had to avoid the traffic jam that almost kills my legs for hours in the road. That's just nonsense, everyday i had to avoid the same thing with ended up in the shopping center. But i guess that's is the best solution for me right now since i don't have other choice in my hand. Going home is the last choice maybe. hahaha...
See, i spend a lot of my time in the shopping center this late couple days. Like an abandoned child with no place call home. lol. Today maybe will end up there again. Still dunno, i'll just go on with the flow. One and another things that i want to do but still can't fulfill is to watch movie. But so bad i don't have anyone that can accompany me. Friends and cousin already watched the movie that i want to watch. T.T. Left me alone.. Guess i have to find me an boy-friends or boyfriend for this matter. But i haven't find one till today. Poor me. Maybe i don't have any sex appeal in me. Lol.
And in the middle of August i'll fly abroad directly to find my cousin which have been putting so much effort on her college. So Mrs.JWF, i'm coming in less than 2 weeks. Dunno whether my work can be replace by others for only 4 days. Like Hell, the previous finance team already bailed and left me to replace their job. Made me can't concentrate on my incoming holidays. Can't prepare anything for this trip also. Poor me again. lol. So i think this is the end of my post. See you all in very soon i hope. Xoxo. Jz.
I'm in currently learn adjusting with my new assignment at work. I'm not moving into others company, just increasing my work. Usually i'm the document team and now i have to learn how to be a financial worker team.. Lol..
So try to adjust all of my work in one and only time that always passes so quick..All of your support is highly appreciate.hihihi...Wonder who wants to support me..
And for entertaining myself of nearly get crazy because of my work (of course i don't wanna become crazy at this age, still haven't find my Mr.Right!!! @_@) i gone to shopping center in my town and window shopping around. Maybe i can't call it window shopping since i bought all the things that i saw and interested in. Rofl.
Here i attached for you the things that i bought at the shopping center, not really important if i don't buy it but it's just us woman/girls/grown-up girls things... It calls accessories!!!
I'll explain what is all the above. hihihi..
There's a necklace with white pearl and butterfly, i bought it with IDR 45,000.. I bought this two days ago..
And the love and small white pearl earring, it cost me IDR 25,000.
The turtle did also cost me IDR 25,000... for two latest item i bought them just last night.
That's it, it's all woman things aren't they??? Oh i forgot i also bought some woman secret thing (inner wears) and it costs me IDR 183,000.. I can't attached for you this one cause that would be totally a freak babe..And on top of that the whole blogger will know my posts in less than one hour maybe.hihihi......
Actually i gone to shopping center to kill time because i had to avoid the traffic jam that almost kills my legs for hours in the road. That's just nonsense, everyday i had to avoid the same thing with ended up in the shopping center. But i guess that's is the best solution for me right now since i don't have other choice in my hand. Going home is the last choice maybe. hahaha...
See, i spend a lot of my time in the shopping center this late couple days. Like an abandoned child with no place call home. lol. Today maybe will end up there again. Still dunno, i'll just go on with the flow. One and another things that i want to do but still can't fulfill is to watch movie. But so bad i don't have anyone that can accompany me. Friends and cousin already watched the movie that i want to watch. T.T. Left me alone.. Guess i have to find me an boy-friends or boyfriend for this matter. But i haven't find one till today. Poor me. Maybe i don't have any sex appeal in me. Lol.
And in the middle of August i'll fly abroad directly to find my cousin which have been putting so much effort on her college. So Mrs.JWF, i'm coming in less than 2 weeks. Dunno whether my work can be replace by others for only 4 days. Like Hell, the previous finance team already bailed and left me to replace their job. Made me can't concentrate on my incoming holidays. Can't prepare anything for this trip also. Poor me again. lol. So i think this is the end of my post. See you all in very soon i hope. Xoxo. Jz.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Good News but Not For Me
Hi Everyone...Saturday again.What's your plan for today????Much of a plan huh... And i have no plans in my thought for what to do. Where to go. Whom to go with. Ironic huh. LOL.
Today i'm here to share with you all something that came to my mind last night when i pick and drop my work partner and his guys to the airport. Hell yeah, they're going to have fun for weekend. His guys here mean his girlfriend, both of his fellas and their wife also and plus one of his fella sister in law. I know it's quite confusing with my description for them so i'll make an initial name for them. So that it would be easy to understand. Because each of them had something to tell in this session.Lol. Much to absorb.
First, i'll start from my work partner. Hmm..Let's just call him Mr.Jojo, ok?? So, when we're on the way to pick up one of his friend and wife, there's only left both of us in the car cause his friends went to call his wife. In this case, we haven't pick up his girlfriend because her house is more far from our office. And when in the car Mr.Jojo talked to me, but actually i didn't realize right away when he talk to me because i plug i-touch into my ear with rock song. But when i saw him pull out his hand from his small bags, i saw a box with red cover and then open it with one push and guess what i saw in the box. A propose ring!!! Lol. I shocked a bit. I thought "oh!! Finally you'll do it for your own sake!!" but nothing came out from my mouth just a "Wow". Rofl. In the end Mr.Jojo asked me, "Is it pretty???" and in an instant i answerer him with "Hell, of course it is." So here i want to congrats Mr.Jojo and his wife wannabe. Hope everything turns out to be the best for both of them. Although it's not i'm the one who's gonna be propose but I just can't afford the joy and happiness for both of them. Because i know how hard and struggling for Mr.Jojo to accomplished this day. This is just such a happy ending for my thought but not for both of you Mr.Jojo. So keep up the good work. My best wishes and prayer for both of you.^^ Wondering when my day will come. Think i should keep wondering for this matter. Lol.^^
Ok, i'm done with above story. And i want to say i'm sorry for all my blog reader that you have to read my super long story everytime i write my blog. i'm so sorry, this is because i'm lazy to write and i ended up have to share it all in one scroll. Please tolerance for my laziness.
Second, let's begin with Mr.Jojo friend with initial Mr.Tutu and his wife. Here i notice that Mr.Tutu and his wife is really love each other. His wife is a very caring wife. Always care for his husband. But in this case, Mr.Tutu is a very funny people so it's really hard to tell from his attitude. He always talk with his mouth, not his heart or brain. I know he has nothing bad for that. Just like to make a joke for and from other peoples. I already been made laugh to dead only in my one hours in the car. I laugh with my tears would burst out of my eyes. He talk soooo much. And i love this facts because he talk so freely to us with no age difference. Keep up the good work also Mr.Tutu. You're totally screw with all of that. Rock to hell. ^^
Third is the friend of Mr.Jojo and Mr.Tutu. Better called him Mr.Vovo and his wife. The facts i heard about he, his wife and his sister in law shocked me a bit. Three of them mixed into one so freely. I think there would no wife that want their husband gone out with other girls even that's her own blood related sister. Nowadays that kind of wife already so hard to find. But this Mr.Vovo's wife is the kind of what i said above. Think of it, the fact are they can went everywhere together, for lunch, breakfast, dinner, coffee time even brunch time in the holiday. His sister in law had a boyfriend as far as i knew and soon to get marry to his boyfriend. So this is just awkward for me. Mr.Vovo and his sister in law still can go out so freely minus his wife because of duty call or another things. Mr. Vovo and his sister in law go to swimming together, have lunch together. Without afraid of his wife absence will make the situation became dull between them. In the save side i would think the three of them is very fair to each other. But if you think it differently, it would cross to what's the issue with the three of them. So it's your decision with what side you want to put it. If me personally, i think i envy them. His wife and her sister never become awkward with his husband between them. One fact that the most exaggerating for me is they can sleep in the same hotel room together.Lol. Mr.Tutu make a joke over this matter says that what if Mr.Vovo make a wrong move to his sister in law when he fell asleep.Lol. Just a joke only. Lol.
So this is my story. Let's get going. I have to finish my work asap and go home. Bye. everybody. Xoxo. Jz.
Today i'm here to share with you all something that came to my mind last night when i pick and drop my work partner and his guys to the airport. Hell yeah, they're going to have fun for weekend. His guys here mean his girlfriend, both of his fellas and their wife also and plus one of his fella sister in law. I know it's quite confusing with my description for them so i'll make an initial name for them. So that it would be easy to understand. Because each of them had something to tell in this session.Lol. Much to absorb.
First, i'll start from my work partner. Hmm..Let's just call him Mr.Jojo, ok?? So, when we're on the way to pick up one of his friend and wife, there's only left both of us in the car cause his friends went to call his wife. In this case, we haven't pick up his girlfriend because her house is more far from our office. And when in the car Mr.Jojo talked to me, but actually i didn't realize right away when he talk to me because i plug i-touch into my ear with rock song. But when i saw him pull out his hand from his small bags, i saw a box with red cover and then open it with one push and guess what i saw in the box. A propose ring!!! Lol. I shocked a bit. I thought "oh!! Finally you'll do it for your own sake!!" but nothing came out from my mouth just a "Wow". Rofl. In the end Mr.Jojo asked me, "Is it pretty???" and in an instant i answerer him with "Hell, of course it is." So here i want to congrats Mr.Jojo and his wife wannabe. Hope everything turns out to be the best for both of them. Although it's not i'm the one who's gonna be propose but I just can't afford the joy and happiness for both of them. Because i know how hard and struggling for Mr.Jojo to accomplished this day. This is just such a happy ending for my thought but not for both of you Mr.Jojo. So keep up the good work. My best wishes and prayer for both of you.^^ Wondering when my day will come. Think i should keep wondering for this matter. Lol.^^
Ok, i'm done with above story. And i want to say i'm sorry for all my blog reader that you have to read my super long story everytime i write my blog. i'm so sorry, this is because i'm lazy to write and i ended up have to share it all in one scroll. Please tolerance for my laziness.
Second, let's begin with Mr.Jojo friend with initial Mr.Tutu and his wife. Here i notice that Mr.Tutu and his wife is really love each other. His wife is a very caring wife. Always care for his husband. But in this case, Mr.Tutu is a very funny people so it's really hard to tell from his attitude. He always talk with his mouth, not his heart or brain. I know he has nothing bad for that. Just like to make a joke for and from other peoples. I already been made laugh to dead only in my one hours in the car. I laugh with my tears would burst out of my eyes. He talk soooo much. And i love this facts because he talk so freely to us with no age difference. Keep up the good work also Mr.Tutu. You're totally screw with all of that. Rock to hell. ^^
Third is the friend of Mr.Jojo and Mr.Tutu. Better called him Mr.Vovo and his wife. The facts i heard about he, his wife and his sister in law shocked me a bit. Three of them mixed into one so freely. I think there would no wife that want their husband gone out with other girls even that's her own blood related sister. Nowadays that kind of wife already so hard to find. But this Mr.Vovo's wife is the kind of what i said above. Think of it, the fact are they can went everywhere together, for lunch, breakfast, dinner, coffee time even brunch time in the holiday. His sister in law had a boyfriend as far as i knew and soon to get marry to his boyfriend. So this is just awkward for me. Mr.Vovo and his sister in law still can go out so freely minus his wife because of duty call or another things. Mr. Vovo and his sister in law go to swimming together, have lunch together. Without afraid of his wife absence will make the situation became dull between them. In the save side i would think the three of them is very fair to each other. But if you think it differently, it would cross to what's the issue with the three of them. So it's your decision with what side you want to put it. If me personally, i think i envy them. His wife and her sister never become awkward with his husband between them. One fact that the most exaggerating for me is they can sleep in the same hotel room together.Lol. Mr.Tutu make a joke over this matter says that what if Mr.Vovo make a wrong move to his sister in law when he fell asleep.Lol. Just a joke only. Lol.
So this is my story. Let's get going. I have to finish my work asap and go home. Bye. everybody. Xoxo. Jz.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
I'm indeed sorry
Aaaaaaa.......i can't relief now,still have exam and assignment to do this day..huk huk,...So many....Exam still haven't learn anything...hhhhh.......
Thanks God, yesterday i can done better for the test..It's not full done but at least i got enough..Then it's up to the lecturer for the rest. I just can pray for the best and wait. Now it's time for today battle. Hope i can do it well too. Have high hope in this. LoL. After taking final test i have to continue on my assignment again today. May God lead & guide my way today. Thanks in Advance for everything.
Today i get a good news and a bad one too. The good one actually can't call it good, just something that i had given up but suddenly appear in my sight when i already didn't really expect it would. So i think i must be happy and thanks for this. Previously i would expect more than this, but it's OK, at least we made a progress. And here comes the bad news, today morning i had made someone fell down from his bike, make me startled when i heard a sound from behind me. Can't say it's totally my fault cause i myself dunno why he fell down. maybe he's referring to me that made him fell down just now. I won't say i'm not at fault at all. I do feel sorry for him and i want to say i really didn't mean it to be like this. My deeply apologize for this.
I just spend my lunch time in this blog, think i should get going and start my lunch and then continue my work and start learning for my test today. So see you soon, then. Xoxo. Jz.
Thanks God, yesterday i can done better for the test..It's not full done but at least i got enough..Then it's up to the lecturer for the rest. I just can pray for the best and wait. Now it's time for today battle. Hope i can do it well too. Have high hope in this. LoL. After taking final test i have to continue on my assignment again today. May God lead & guide my way today. Thanks in Advance for everything.
Today i get a good news and a bad one too. The good one actually can't call it good, just something that i had given up but suddenly appear in my sight when i already didn't really expect it would. So i think i must be happy and thanks for this. Previously i would expect more than this, but it's OK, at least we made a progress. And here comes the bad news, today morning i had made someone fell down from his bike, make me startled when i heard a sound from behind me. Can't say it's totally my fault cause i myself dunno why he fell down. maybe he's referring to me that made him fell down just now. I won't say i'm not at fault at all. I do feel sorry for him and i want to say i really didn't mean it to be like this. My deeply apologize for this.
I just spend my lunch time in this blog, think i should get going and start my lunch and then continue my work and start learning for my test today. So see you soon, then. Xoxo. Jz.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Worrying about My Exam
Good Morning everybody..Feeling fresh today????I am actually,because last night my lil bro led me to sleep with fulfilling my request to play the song which currently i like to hear until i fall asleep till morning..So today i want to thanks my lil bro, Mr. T for filling my request which this is totally rare for my bro to accompany me with my request.LOL. He always said that i'm crazy with always had an extraordinary request that he can't fulfill but i always keep requesting.hahaha....
Thinking of last night, i also have an exam which i think i won't pass the exam because i can't done it well enough. Hope the lecturer will spare us enough.lol. Hope ssoooo..... sometimes i get bored from study but i know no matter what i have to graduate from this University. My Mom have high hopes for me, my family indeed although someone keep babbling that my university is just a piece of crap. Lol. Just like hell they knew how hard we've been struggling to be good in their eyes. People brain are so simple actually. Rolf.
And one last thing that i hope today is that i can make it good for my exam so that i don't have to re-take again. because i hate re-take so much. No good for me huh??? lazy but still don't want to retake. How can people like me exist, i still dunno too.. Lol.. This is me then, everybody!!! xoxo. Jz.
Thinking of last night, i also have an exam which i think i won't pass the exam because i can't done it well enough. Hope the lecturer will spare us enough.lol. Hope ssoooo..... sometimes i get bored from study but i know no matter what i have to graduate from this University. My Mom have high hopes for me, my family indeed although someone keep babbling that my university is just a piece of crap. Lol. Just like hell they knew how hard we've been struggling to be good in their eyes. People brain are so simple actually. Rolf.
And one last thing that i hope today is that i can make it good for my exam so that i don't have to re-take again. because i hate re-take so much. No good for me huh??? lazy but still don't want to retake. How can people like me exist, i still dunno too.. Lol.. This is me then, everybody!!! xoxo. Jz.
Monday, July 12, 2010
In The End Nothing Last Forever
Hi Hi Everybody in Blogger.. Finally have the spirit to post again since my mind already overflow with many things to consider and re-think what's wrong with my life..such a big curiosity question and dense question isn't it???*long sigh* actually i already dunno how many sigh i'm having till today.lol.. Early this morning, when i'm driving, my mind gone everywhere and didn't notice the road, a little longer of mind travelling, i would have already crash the car in front of me but fortunately God still love me, i still have time to hit the brake right away and had a sudden stop that hard enough to shake my head.lol. make me realize and gathered all my mind in one again and promise myself i will not give it a damn anymore. If i don't protect myself then who would???
Many incident that didn't suit my mind and heart this couple days, but finally i can walk through it in the save side. It started from 2 days ago, i remember it was Saturday and in our country we have a holiday that day so i'm quite excited thinking i can have many leisure time. lol. lazy, am i??? So i woke up that morning and then bring my grandma and granda to have breakfast, we had kari bihun that my grandpa like.hihihihi....and then we back home and in the afternoon i have crash schedule with my family, which i have to bring them to where they want and in the other side, i already make a promise with others to go out with them. But my family insist on me to drove and drop them first and then i can go have fun. But in condition i had to go back at night to drove them home again.(Ane ma huan kan??but what can i do lah??) Poor me i didn't have many choice in my hands, so i had to delay my promise and drive them which this is still OK, although i'm a lil bit not happy, thinking why i always can't have my day off and why i have to serve people whatever they want, why i have no place to say/scream out that i want to have my full day off without any intruder, but in the end i always ended stuck with all of that. i just had to give up with all of my will and fulfill others.
So i just get ready to drive them, in the half way, in front of the traffic light my window got knocked by an old man, then i scroll down my window and asked him "what's the matter?" and you know what did he answer me???lol. He answered me "hey you shit brat, look at my car, you scum!!!". Oh my my i think i made someone mad at me and he's face is red from anger, i'm really afraid actually but i definitely can't lost this fight, i'll be damned if i lose this conversation so i just asked him back, "why should i look???" and this phrase make him more angry and he babbled out "you brat, you drove like hell and spit my whole car with mud then you say why should i look!!!! you see how dirty my car is now!!!??" with high high tone in my face. Then i sound on my nerve like "That's your problem, not mine! why should i give it a damned!!!????". Say what, he gets more angry and then he moved his hand in a will to toss his hands to my face, but he didn't do it, he just end up his toss in the air because when it happens, my brain scream out, i have to defend myself so i scream quickly and loudly "hey you!you want to play rough hah??did i crash to your car or what!!!???i drove like hell that is my problem and your car is dirty that's your problem not mine!!!!". I feel very angry that time and just scream as louder as i want, and i notice people in other side of our car already kept watching our incident. In the end he said "you shit fucking asshole, don't try to fool me, i'll kill you later!!!" and i don't want to hear the rest so i just scroll up my window, guess what right before my window close, he spitted out his dirty saliva to me!!! damn it huh!!!but fortunately it didn't hit my face, it landed on my window. And i really thanks God with this one, i myself dunno what will happen to him if his saliva landed on me, maybe i'll surely hit him and drag with my car.lol. cruel me huh. but i'm already in the mood of hitting people that day.
Above is the rough conversation between me and the angry old man. And here's the reason why i drove that quick is because i'm rushing with time, i remember i already promised to go out but in the end i got delay until couple hours. And not the lucky side is i bump into a traffic jam that waist my time again so once i have a chance to be quick why don't i rush faster???It all happens very fast and i knew that i made a wrong choice this time. This time is just i spitted mud to the other cars, what if i had something big than that??? this is where i beg for forgiveness with the way i act out that day. Say what in the end i still get nothing but missunderstanding from people, they think i'm a joki, crazy and didn't care with my life, they think i didn't care with the promises i had made. Guess now you have the answer that i never want to say even when you asked me. I never want to hang out and promise all of my friends to hang out is because i knew from the beginning that i can't fulfill all of them. I'd rather stayed at home and enjoy my life, because i knew i still have a duty call that can occur anytime that i had to fulfill no matter what. This is me, i'm not perfect, i'm just trying to be better and try to be perfect even if i knew that is just impossible. It's just silly me that thought people will surely understand my condition, i've failed once that made me closed my heart, and the second is still failed to death. *sigh* Xoxo All. Jz.
Many incident that didn't suit my mind and heart this couple days, but finally i can walk through it in the save side. It started from 2 days ago, i remember it was Saturday and in our country we have a holiday that day so i'm quite excited thinking i can have many leisure time. lol. lazy, am i??? So i woke up that morning and then bring my grandma and granda to have breakfast, we had kari bihun that my grandpa like.hihihihi....and then we back home and in the afternoon i have crash schedule with my family, which i have to bring them to where they want and in the other side, i already make a promise with others to go out with them. But my family insist on me to drove and drop them first and then i can go have fun. But in condition i had to go back at night to drove them home again.(Ane ma huan kan??but what can i do lah??) Poor me i didn't have many choice in my hands, so i had to delay my promise and drive them which this is still OK, although i'm a lil bit not happy, thinking why i always can't have my day off and why i have to serve people whatever they want, why i have no place to say/scream out that i want to have my full day off without any intruder, but in the end i always ended stuck with all of that. i just had to give up with all of my will and fulfill others.
So i just get ready to drive them, in the half way, in front of the traffic light my window got knocked by an old man, then i scroll down my window and asked him "what's the matter?" and you know what did he answer me???lol. He answered me "hey you shit brat, look at my car, you scum!!!". Oh my my i think i made someone mad at me and he's face is red from anger, i'm really afraid actually but i definitely can't lost this fight, i'll be damned if i lose this conversation so i just asked him back, "why should i look???" and this phrase make him more angry and he babbled out "you brat, you drove like hell and spit my whole car with mud then you say why should i look!!!! you see how dirty my car is now!!!??" with high high tone in my face. Then i sound on my nerve like "That's your problem, not mine! why should i give it a damned!!!????". Say what, he gets more angry and then he moved his hand in a will to toss his hands to my face, but he didn't do it, he just end up his toss in the air because when it happens, my brain scream out, i have to defend myself so i scream quickly and loudly "hey you!you want to play rough hah??did i crash to your car or what!!!???i drove like hell that is my problem and your car is dirty that's your problem not mine!!!!". I feel very angry that time and just scream as louder as i want, and i notice people in other side of our car already kept watching our incident. In the end he said "you shit fucking asshole, don't try to fool me, i'll kill you later!!!" and i don't want to hear the rest so i just scroll up my window, guess what right before my window close, he spitted out his dirty saliva to me!!! damn it huh!!!but fortunately it didn't hit my face, it landed on my window. And i really thanks God with this one, i myself dunno what will happen to him if his saliva landed on me, maybe i'll surely hit him and drag with my car.lol. cruel me huh. but i'm already in the mood of hitting people that day.
Above is the rough conversation between me and the angry old man. And here's the reason why i drove that quick is because i'm rushing with time, i remember i already promised to go out but in the end i got delay until couple hours. And not the lucky side is i bump into a traffic jam that waist my time again so once i have a chance to be quick why don't i rush faster???It all happens very fast and i knew that i made a wrong choice this time. This time is just i spitted mud to the other cars, what if i had something big than that??? this is where i beg for forgiveness with the way i act out that day. Say what in the end i still get nothing but missunderstanding from people, they think i'm a joki, crazy and didn't care with my life, they think i didn't care with the promises i had made. Guess now you have the answer that i never want to say even when you asked me. I never want to hang out and promise all of my friends to hang out is because i knew from the beginning that i can't fulfill all of them. I'd rather stayed at home and enjoy my life, because i knew i still have a duty call that can occur anytime that i had to fulfill no matter what. This is me, i'm not perfect, i'm just trying to be better and try to be perfect even if i knew that is just impossible. It's just silly me that thought people will surely understand my condition, i've failed once that made me closed my heart, and the second is still failed to death. *sigh* Xoxo All. Jz.
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Busy Day & Busy Mind
Hi Again Everyone..Feeling great this day???Suddenly i have many thing to write but nothing come out after i start typing..lol..easy to forget leh..my bad really..
Hmm... As i said, busy day and busy mind.. I feel i'm already in the nerve even when i haven't start sharing..lol.. but all of it already passed so i just feel so so now..hahaha.... First, i felt trully sorry to Ms. JWF for my rudeness from canceling our plans for going to watch movie together.Deeply apologize for this matter. I know both of us are very eager to watch the movie but i had to canceled our schedule because my urgent & sudden matter.. Reason why i had to canceled our plan was i had an urgent class from university to attend that day. But in the end the lecturer canceled that class. Really pissed me off actually but what can we do???lol..
Come second, yesterday i made a new plan again to watch movie together with Ms. JWF, i myself was quite excited for my new plan because i thought this time would be OK since i didn't have anything to do on Saturday. As i always wrote on my previous blog. I started my day at the office and start thinking for my day plan and i organize all of my plan. But say what???All of them had to be canceled due to other people urgency!! Copy this, other people urgency!not mine. But i'm the one that had to be part of their day plan. And that plan is no other than became their driver. Eeerrr.... I had to run from east to south, north to west and ruin all my day.. So sad and angry actually but what can i do???can i say it's my duty??hmm...not the right word to describe my feeling but still OK lah.lol..
But that night i felt comforted by my brother Mr. T, we had chat and we talked about our day and he support me for tomorrow exam. We talked about many thing which this kind of thing is rarely happens because usually we talked only if there's something important.lol. I remember he said to me this phrase that represent my busy day, he said "hari ini lu e hidup ane khoo (read : pahit) ar". And then we talked about our future in joking mode. so i laugh a lot that night. Thanks to my lil bro, at least you made me laugh at the end of my busy day & busy mind.
Wah wah seems like i already complained about many things from upside down..rofl.. Maybe i have to stop already.. Sorry everybody for my rudeness above.. Guess i have to go to sleep, tomorrow still have long way to go i believe. Hope God will guide my day.. Same for all of you..Have a nice sleep too.. XoXo.. Jz.
Hmm... As i said, busy day and busy mind.. I feel i'm already in the nerve even when i haven't start sharing..lol.. but all of it already passed so i just feel so so now..hahaha.... First, i felt trully sorry to Ms. JWF for my rudeness from canceling our plans for going to watch movie together.Deeply apologize for this matter. I know both of us are very eager to watch the movie but i had to canceled our schedule because my urgent & sudden matter.. Reason why i had to canceled our plan was i had an urgent class from university to attend that day. But in the end the lecturer canceled that class. Really pissed me off actually but what can we do???lol..
Come second, yesterday i made a new plan again to watch movie together with Ms. JWF, i myself was quite excited for my new plan because i thought this time would be OK since i didn't have anything to do on Saturday. As i always wrote on my previous blog. I started my day at the office and start thinking for my day plan and i organize all of my plan. But say what???All of them had to be canceled due to other people urgency!! Copy this, other people urgency!not mine. But i'm the one that had to be part of their day plan. And that plan is no other than became their driver. Eeerrr.... I had to run from east to south, north to west and ruin all my day.. So sad and angry actually but what can i do???can i say it's my duty??hmm...not the right word to describe my feeling but still OK lah.lol..
But that night i felt comforted by my brother Mr. T, we had chat and we talked about our day and he support me for tomorrow exam. We talked about many thing which this kind of thing is rarely happens because usually we talked only if there's something important.lol. I remember he said to me this phrase that represent my busy day, he said "hari ini lu e hidup ane khoo (read : pahit) ar". And then we talked about our future in joking mode. so i laugh a lot that night. Thanks to my lil bro, at least you made me laugh at the end of my busy day & busy mind.
Wah wah seems like i already complained about many things from upside down..rofl.. Maybe i have to stop already.. Sorry everybody for my rudeness above.. Guess i have to go to sleep, tomorrow still have long way to go i believe. Hope God will guide my day.. Same for all of you..Have a nice sleep too.. XoXo.. Jz.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Cut it or Not, Cut it or Not..Eeeerrrr....Seriously i can't decide on My Own..
Hello, Everyone in Blogger...Finally you get to see my post again after long long past day with my last blog..Let me guess, it's already near to one month i haven't written anything..Damn me for my own laziness....aaarrrggghhhh.....Hope there's no next time for this kind of laziness...rofl..(i think it would be everyday i have it.)
Back to the main topic, if i ask should cut it or not?? what would you guys/gals answers???hahaha...of course you'll confuse to dead about what i'm asking actually??lol..ok ok, i think i'll pissed off everyone if i'm being rude like this... actually the topic i want to ask is should i cut my long hair become short hair???lol..simple question and answer actually huh, but i just can't decide it on my own. One side, because i don't really good as the stylist to decide what hair model that would suit me best, come the second one is i can't imagine how come if i have the wrong decision and it looks ugly on me???oh my my..........see....something sounds so simple yet i made it sounds so so soooo...hard to say.... very hoping that i could have people to tell me what i have to do...so Cut it or Not?? i think it's all up to you people..
Again, i'm having my backache again..duh..duh...i really hate it this way.. i can't stretch my body to everywhere like i usually did and i hate having a limited way with how i move my back and body..like a robot i think... but what to do lah??if i move way too much than it'll be more hurtful to dead. so stay away from backache everybody.lol..that is just my simple reminder..just take it easy...
Oh my my after previewing this blog, i think all the above is about nothing than complaining and complained... i should have stop complaining now i guess. Not good for my brain and for you blogger that read my blog.hahaha.....
So, guess what???today is Saturday again huh.. Again and again and again....It's rainy day here. So it's a really good good time to sleep. Hmm...i'm starting to wonder why i always write my blog at Saturday??? just so so, nothing to do at saturday.hahaha..... Still long way to go and i'm already getting starving now cause it's near 12.00 now. So i'll see you soon in my next Blog..Bye-Bye everybody..xoxo.Jz.
Back to the main topic, if i ask should cut it or not?? what would you guys/gals answers???hahaha...of course you'll confuse to dead about what i'm asking actually??lol..ok ok, i think i'll pissed off everyone if i'm being rude like this... actually the topic i want to ask is should i cut my long hair become short hair???lol..simple question and answer actually huh, but i just can't decide it on my own. One side, because i don't really good as the stylist to decide what hair model that would suit me best, come the second one is i can't imagine how come if i have the wrong decision and it looks ugly on me???oh my my..........see....something sounds so simple yet i made it sounds so so soooo...hard to say.... very hoping that i could have people to tell me what i have to do...so Cut it or Not?? i think it's all up to you people..
Again, i'm having my backache again..duh..duh...i really hate it this way.. i can't stretch my body to everywhere like i usually did and i hate having a limited way with how i move my back and body..like a robot i think... but what to do lah??if i move way too much than it'll be more hurtful to dead. so stay away from backache everybody.lol..that is just my simple reminder..just take it easy...
Oh my my after previewing this blog, i think all the above is about nothing than complaining and complained... i should have stop complaining now i guess. Not good for my brain and for you blogger that read my blog.hahaha.....
So, guess what???today is Saturday again huh.. Again and again and again....It's rainy day here. So it's a really good good time to sleep. Hmm...i'm starting to wonder why i always write my blog at Saturday??? just so so, nothing to do at saturday.hahaha..... Still long way to go and i'm already getting starving now cause it's near 12.00 now. So i'll see you soon in my next Blog..Bye-Bye everybody..xoxo.Jz.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Sleepy Monday
Monday..Monday,why do you have to come so quick after Sunday???hahaha....Silly question i think..Just a lame joke..cause i'm really sleepy now..big and long Hooaaamm for today.i know i can't be sleepy and lack of work..it's ok everybody, i'll always stay focus on my work(hope).. How about all of you???Still have high fighting spirit for this coming week..
We're soon gonna enter the six month in this year. day by day rolls by really quick like a blink in our eyes. i'm eagerly waiting for June to come.. Cause i'm waiting for my lovely cousin to fly here now after months haven't met. Miss Ms. JWF so much..Long time no see leh...But first of all, before that i have to fully support her for her final exam that coming in this June and after that i believe we can have fun again..(hahaha) happy to death...
For Today i still have to work till 5 this afternoon and then get my ass to my University till 9pm so still long way to go. Although i'm sleepy but still in the mood to write a blog huh..cause it feel relief when i can share my thought in this blog which in reality i can't even speak up this matter to people. Talking about sleepy i do feel really sleepy today with the currently weather in my city and the air conditioner in my office, ohhhhh i am really really gonna fell asleep now if it's minus my Boss in the office right beside me. Reason why i'm sleepy today because at Saturday night i read a book with Indonesia teen writer and fully concentrate on that book till 4am in the morning. Fall asleep at 4am after finished that book and woke up at 4.30am Sunday morning and rush my auntie to the airport.. See...Very Sleepy lah.. >.<
I admit it, if i already start reading a book(but not for School or some tuition kind of book..Hahaha...) i will hardly close the book if it's not finish yet. Bad habit actually, i will think basic need like eat, bath, sleep or else is an intruder for my Book..Hahaha.. Hope all of you don't have the same habit as mine. xoxo. Jz.
We're soon gonna enter the six month in this year. day by day rolls by really quick like a blink in our eyes. i'm eagerly waiting for June to come.. Cause i'm waiting for my lovely cousin to fly here now after months haven't met. Miss Ms. JWF so much..Long time no see leh...But first of all, before that i have to fully support her for her final exam that coming in this June and after that i believe we can have fun again..(hahaha) happy to death...
For Today i still have to work till 5 this afternoon and then get my ass to my University till 9pm so still long way to go. Although i'm sleepy but still in the mood to write a blog huh..cause it feel relief when i can share my thought in this blog which in reality i can't even speak up this matter to people. Talking about sleepy i do feel really sleepy today with the currently weather in my city and the air conditioner in my office, ohhhhh i am really really gonna fell asleep now if it's minus my Boss in the office right beside me. Reason why i'm sleepy today because at Saturday night i read a book with Indonesia teen writer and fully concentrate on that book till 4am in the morning. Fall asleep at 4am after finished that book and woke up at 4.30am Sunday morning and rush my auntie to the airport.. See...Very Sleepy lah.. >.<
I admit it, if i already start reading a book(but not for School or some tuition kind of book..Hahaha...) i will hardly close the book if it's not finish yet. Bad habit actually, i will think basic need like eat, bath, sleep or else is an intruder for my Book..Hahaha.. Hope all of you don't have the same habit as mine. xoxo. Jz.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Saturday Oh Saturday
Wah...wow wow...It's Saturday again..Time passed by really quick this day...Make us have to rush to follow the time..Soo...After one week haven't post anything...here i am..actually there's plenty i wanna share with all of you everyday in this week, but i didn't had time to update it in my blog cause kinda busy everyday..
In this week i had done so many mistakes.. And cause many trouble to people... Things i still feel guilty till today is because of i parked in front of my lecturer car and i pulled the hand-brake (without realizing) and make my lecturer angry and babbled to all of our security in the University.. And all of the security had to gone from class to class to find me for hours. because i didn't realize already committed a big problem down in the parking lot i feel very bad for that.thinking that why am i so thoughtless.Feel bad and feel guilty to my lecturer and all security in the Uni.. In the end, my lecturer went home by Bemoru (becak model baru)Traditional ride in Indonesia after tired of waiting..Made me can't concentrate on my lesson until the end of the class.. So sorry Mr.RMS for my bad habit..>.<
And for today, maybe the same as last week.. Weekend but still Nowhere to go...Now i'm still in the office but i think i'll rush home after office hour.. Miss hanging out with all my friends but i always have no time for that..so sad actually but i believe there's always a way out for everything..Hope all of you have a nice weekend and hope you'll spend your time with all the people that you love the most, cause i will!!hahaha......Finally i have to end this topic so daa daa everybody..See you next time on my next post..Hope i can be more active with my blog..so wait for me..hahaha...xoxo.. Jz.
In this week i had done so many mistakes.. And cause many trouble to people... Things i still feel guilty till today is because of i parked in front of my lecturer car and i pulled the hand-brake (without realizing) and make my lecturer angry and babbled to all of our security in the University.. And all of the security had to gone from class to class to find me for hours. because i didn't realize already committed a big problem down in the parking lot i feel very bad for that.thinking that why am i so thoughtless.Feel bad and feel guilty to my lecturer and all security in the Uni.. In the end, my lecturer went home by Bemoru (becak model baru)Traditional ride in Indonesia after tired of waiting..Made me can't concentrate on my lesson until the end of the class.. So sorry Mr.RMS for my bad habit..>.<
And for today, maybe the same as last week.. Weekend but still Nowhere to go...Now i'm still in the office but i think i'll rush home after office hour.. Miss hanging out with all my friends but i always have no time for that..so sad actually but i believe there's always a way out for everything..Hope all of you have a nice weekend and hope you'll spend your time with all the people that you love the most, cause i will!!hahaha......Finally i have to end this topic so daa daa everybody..See you next time on my next post..Hope i can be more active with my blog..so wait for me..hahaha...xoxo.. Jz.
Monday, May 24, 2010
Nothing Too Much for Our Day
Hi again everybody in Blogger...Hope you had a terrific day today as I do..Nothing special just something so so..haha....just an opening joke for refreshing my brain..
Actually, i'm in a terrible Headache for this couple days. I hate to admit that i do need to find a doctor again for that. i, myself not really knew why i had this headache for so so many days and sometimes ruined my day mood, but not my night cause i love night (i can curl in my bed and that makes me feel relief and forget everything that happen in the daytime.) I believe all of you love your Bed the most.cause i do!!hahaha.....
Today, i want to share with you all about myself cause nothing so special today to begin with. So, i just begin it with my personality. Sometimes, i can be a simple-minded person but sometimes i also can be a very tough-thinker person and this one always annoyed people around me. But totally, this is me! I also believe that people always have their own thought and owned a or maybe more tenet in their life. So do i. Once, one ever told me that we definitely can't force people to live in our tenet and the reverse, they also can't force their tenet to your life. I realize that i have so many bad habit that need to be re-consider and re-calculate. So i'm here try to re-built my personality which i dunno if it's still possible or not. So, all of your support is highly appreciate. Hope i can be a better me and don't have to disappoint others that Love me.
Now, i'm in the mood of going back to my lovely bad.hahaha... Thanks for having fun blog with me today. Hope all of you feel closer to me cause i felt really relief after sharing and we'll discuss about this topic again after this break. Good night all. xoxo. Jz.
Actually, i'm in a terrible Headache for this couple days. I hate to admit that i do need to find a doctor again for that. i, myself not really knew why i had this headache for so so many days and sometimes ruined my day mood, but not my night cause i love night (i can curl in my bed and that makes me feel relief and forget everything that happen in the daytime.) I believe all of you love your Bed the most.cause i do!!hahaha.....
Today, i want to share with you all about myself cause nothing so special today to begin with. So, i just begin it with my personality. Sometimes, i can be a simple-minded person but sometimes i also can be a very tough-thinker person and this one always annoyed people around me. But totally, this is me! I also believe that people always have their own thought and owned a or maybe more tenet in their life. So do i. Once, one ever told me that we definitely can't force people to live in our tenet and the reverse, they also can't force their tenet to your life. I realize that i have so many bad habit that need to be re-consider and re-calculate. So i'm here try to re-built my personality which i dunno if it's still possible or not. So, all of your support is highly appreciate. Hope i can be a better me and don't have to disappoint others that Love me.
Now, i'm in the mood of going back to my lovely bad.hahaha... Thanks for having fun blog with me today. Hope all of you feel closer to me cause i felt really relief after sharing and we'll discuss about this topic again after this break. Good night all. xoxo. Jz.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Late Night Post
Today is May 22, 2010 and it's already late night Saturday or should call it Sunday early morning cause it's passed midnight already. For couples, maybe today's the most important day in their whole week.(read : been waiting eagerly for upcoming dating.hahaha...). Not for me in this case due to i haven't find my special person. I believe someday, somewhere, somewhat, somehow i will. (hope i have the right one). So, in the end i post this blog which i abandoned for couple days.
Today i woke up in the morning, have to pull all of my spirit back to me and start my day, which i remember was Saturday and i only had half-day work duty. Nothing much of my activity today and i rush home as soon as possible from office, thinking of no other place to go to entertain myself so just ended up in my small room with Sidney Sheldon book in my hands until i fall asleep for afternoon nap.
Woke up again from my afternoon nap at 4.00pm and get ready for my Mandarin Class. Actually today's class make me frustrated. My teacher told me to take the HSK exam and i really really not in the mood at all. In the end i make so many mistakes. So sorry, Ms.SSH for my behavior today. Will try to keep up the good work tomorrow. Also i'll try to improve my writing skill too.
And now, still chatting with Ms. JWF and that's make me relief after long time not chatting and sharing. Really thanks to Ms. JWF for filling my numb Saturday become full of thoughts. Can't wait till you fly back here and have fun again. Miss you. xoxo. Jz.
Today i woke up in the morning, have to pull all of my spirit back to me and start my day, which i remember was Saturday and i only had half-day work duty. Nothing much of my activity today and i rush home as soon as possible from office, thinking of no other place to go to entertain myself so just ended up in my small room with Sidney Sheldon book in my hands until i fall asleep for afternoon nap.
Woke up again from my afternoon nap at 4.00pm and get ready for my Mandarin Class. Actually today's class make me frustrated. My teacher told me to take the HSK exam and i really really not in the mood at all. In the end i make so many mistakes. So sorry, Ms.SSH for my behavior today. Will try to keep up the good work tomorrow. Also i'll try to improve my writing skill too.
And now, still chatting with Ms. JWF and that's make me relief after long time not chatting and sharing. Really thanks to Ms. JWF for filling my numb Saturday become full of thoughts. Can't wait till you fly back here and have fun again. Miss you. xoxo. Jz.
Monday, May 10, 2010
First time trying to write a blog because currently i happen to have really tough days in my tiny life. though i never regret whatever it was that cause me many difficulties and make me chosen the wrong step for my life. There's always a little bit of good.
Anyway, Hi Everybody in Blogger.. Welcome to my page and my first Blog. Hope you all enjoy and appreciate your criticism & suggestion for my reference.
Today is Monday on May 10, 2010. The day that all activities that we keep on repeating everyday in a year start from. Monday or we call it the first and lazy day to start our work & all activities. And it goes the same for me. I'm currently at my office and in lunch break hour. So i'm breaking the rule of eating and start typing this blog. (bad bad bad girl & don't try this at anywhere!) Not good for your health.
And yesterday was World Mother's Day so i just want to say Happy Mother's Day for all the Greatest Mom in this world including My Mom for their Hardworking & Never Ends Spirit. Xoxo all. Jz.
Anyway, Hi Everybody in Blogger.. Welcome to my page and my first Blog. Hope you all enjoy and appreciate your criticism & suggestion for my reference.
Today is Monday on May 10, 2010. The day that all activities that we keep on repeating everyday in a year start from. Monday or we call it the first and lazy day to start our work & all activities. And it goes the same for me. I'm currently at my office and in lunch break hour. So i'm breaking the rule of eating and start typing this blog. (bad bad bad girl & don't try this at anywhere!) Not good for your health.
And yesterday was World Mother's Day so i just want to say Happy Mother's Day for all the Greatest Mom in this world including My Mom for their Hardworking & Never Ends Spirit. Xoxo all. Jz.
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