Hi Again Everybody... I'm coming again in an instant because i still want to write or need to write exactly.hihihihi.. This is the third part of my previous blog. I dunno whether i can finish it in one day cause here is kinda busy with upcoming holiday, so i have to rush my work so that there's no problem for me to have my full holiday and hopefully i can have fun this time.
The third part maybe will contain my personal thought and a bit story from my past. Do you guys still remember the little girl from my part II story??? of course you'll remember that, you just have to re-open the previous blog if you don't. lol...
So you know, this girl grow up and became the person i don't really recognize again this day. I just have this awkward feeling for her. I keep wandering why she's becoming like that. I barely didn't recognize her anymore i think. It's just i also don't hope she'll change this much and slip from our hands. I just don't like her manner now and then maybe. Because i take that her manner will never change again once she's in it.
She changed to became an adult who keep blaming on her Mom because of her Mom gave her a very strict education and curfew time when she's still in teenager. Now she can said that she have no friends now because of that. For me, it's a total LOL. Did she ever think that her Mom did that because her mom afraid she'll get drowned into that manner and came to disappoint her. Her Mom always told me that she's just totally alike her father's side grandmother.
Now she got a boyfriend that in my auntie's eye is already good and fit for her. I also feel very happy if she get the perfect and happy life. In many ways, i still love her and wish her a real happiness. But she just turn out from my sight and against me so i just keep my mouth shut because i know it would be useless for saying another words. I just wish she'll never forget her mom in the future, because now i grow to realize why her Mom always said to me that she's alike with her grandma. However she had this attitude that only matter herself instead of her mother too. It's like she'll survive without other people, this manner she have is the same with my younger brother. They always think of themselves like there's no responsibility for others. Maybe they were built up like that. I dunno the reason why they became like that too.
It is totally acceptable for me when it comes to my younger brother. Because if he, i still can bear it because he still have us older sister and youngest brother to complete his responsibility when he abandoned it. But for her, you knew already that she's only her and her mother. She's the one and only one in her mother's heart. She's her mother only hope. But i think she never realize that. She can't understand and can't bear with her mother even for awhile. Like now after she got a boyfriend, she always go out shopping, eat, have fun with his boyfriend but he never think of getting anything for her mom. Even when her mom is sick at home, she never care and try to go home early and accompany her mom that can't eat anything. *sigh*
And for my matter is, she make me feel like i'm her ordinary friends that she knew only for a year. hahhaa.... totally suitable for my image, huh... Last time story was when we gone out with our mandarin teacher and couple friends, we went to have dinner at a small restaurant and her boyfriend who pays the bill that coming from the waiters, but after walked out from the restaurant she said to me "let's go to uncle house and start count our bill." My first thought is like "See, see, here they come again." and my second thought is "Oh, can't you count it tomorrow or then." It's totally ruin my mood for the rest. It's totally disturbing for me. They want to treat our mandarin teacher but she count the bill in front of our teacher and started collecting the money in the car. Uuugggghhhhh...... Really pissed me off!!!!you guys know. I quickly said with sharp tone "can't you guys please don't count it in our teacher's face". Luckily our mandarin teacher dunno what we're talking about. In my thought, they like want to be saw very loyal in others people eye but totally stingy in the inside. If both of you want to treat people than do it wholeheartedly please. (jangan cuma cari muka!!!!) It's not like a very big sum of money. If it's big i think i still can tolerate that kind of manner. But this is already overreacting.
Both of them can eat like 6 times or more a day if they are together. But they can't treat other people a dinner with some small sum. Is this something that can compare to that thing??? Not to say that i'm very loyal person but at least for something like this i'll never behave like that. If it's a big sum of course i'll pay them back too!!!
One thing that i have in my personal thought is that when i said to my other auntie's that her boyfriend is very stingy, she said that's okay lar cause he knew how hard to earn money. My thought is like, ups.. i complain to the wrong person. Because they are the same type. I shut my mouth in the very second. Did they think that they are the one who knew how hard to earn money???? Hello, do you think how i earn money too??? Is it like flipping a book?? Big No!!! I have to use my brain and ability too, hey. And this story goes the same for my younger brother. He just feel that this problem is just ordinary. But my grandma, grandpa, and youngest brother was agreed with me. My youngest brother asked me before he fell asleep one night, " did Ms.Pn always like that before???" I simply just can't answer him in an instant.
My opinion, for me this is not ordinary, they are over stingy and not in place. If i want to be honest, if we have no responsibility than this matter is totally no matter thing. But this is fully my personal thought. Remember this, you guys can take this story as something to think about. So it is totally up to you people what side do you agree and don't. Above is all of my complaining story. I guess i have to end this story soon. My boss is back. Hihihi...... Xoxo. Jz.
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